7 years ago / in "Deep" Thoughts, Family Life
In my mind I have written 4,239 blog posts. In reality, I have had 2 blogs and about 10 posts total over the past 7-8 years.
I might not be one for consistency when it comes to actually articulating my thoughts, but I’m also not one to let go of my dreams.
So, nervously, I give you attempt number 3 at my own blog. (AHHH WHY AM I DOING THIS!)
…have you ever had something nag and nag and nag at you? (if you have kids then you do.) That is what has led me to this. I have no idea if I have any skills when it comes to writing, but it is a dream and passion and a voice that consumes me to put some words down of my own. I want to be brave and follow this voice.
Lately, I have seen a lot of women in my life follow brave paths. Honestly, I am in awe of them. They have taken a passion or dream or drive and turned it into something they can be proud of.
For me it’s been a weird road to be happy for other women following their dreams. Don’t get me wrong, I am not not happy for them, I just wasn’t always pure in my joy. Mostly because I let their accomplishments lead me to wonder what I was doing? Women who were happy in their place doing what they love (anything!) left me feeling like I might be missing out. Turns out this is a real thing. FOMO — fear of missing out. (Am I way late to the party with this term?? I feel like I am)
Anyway, with this new information, instead of feeling bad and like I’m missing out (for my personality this makes a lot of sense #gottatryeverything), I just decided to try on genuine happiness for women regardless of my own self and what I may or may not be doing.
Here’s the thing with me…I was a little caught up in what all the people around me were doing, that I forgot to press into what God has designed me to do. Once I was able to channel that happy little inner voice again (the nagging) it all became so crystal clear.
Once I could put my own stuff aside, the overwhelming joy and excitement I felt was phenomenal. An old neighbor friend started a really cool art business a few states away, I love seeing her pieces on instagram. I have another friend who is working so hard to get her photography business up and going, her talent is incredible. My dear friend became a fitness instructor and is amazing. I have a handful of wonderful, hardworking friends finding success and joy selling…oils, wraps, bags, jewels, fitness…I’m all in! (I wish I could afford all it) I love what you are doing, you are brave and I admire your confidence so much.
Then there are my blogging, writing, speaking and teaching women. You are my heart and soul. I see you and I literally get knots in my belly. I am excited for you and I am envious in the pure sense of I WANT TO DO THAT TOO. Which leads me to this blog, this post, this attempt at blog number 3. That nudge that is starting to feel like a push or God might actually be shoving me into what makes my heart beat. No more FOMO for me – I’m diving in baby!